Stumbled upon this awesome blog Simply Modern Mom — I’m in love with how it’s organized. Lately (ok, maybe not lately but for the past year or so) I’ve been struggling with how to bring together the bits and pieces of me on the web — I’m kind of all over the place. Isn’t everybody? No? Maybe just me. I love how her blog fits everything in. I’m going to start focusing on that.
Also for my blog to a better reflection of my daily life and not just essays on the struggles we’ve had. Seriously, how much crap can one person really go through in ten years? (That’s rhetorical…please don’t answer.)
Project 52: Rolling in the Deep
Back to my point — Glimpse Into Motherhood. Read more about it here. I love the idea of capturing motherhood in glimpses. Now this is something I can commit to.
Being a mother to me means so many different things — then I multiply that by five or six depending on the day of the week. Me and motherhood? Sometimes she’s my best friend and sometimes there’s a wave of bitterness hiding right below the surface. Not towards the title, not towards the children, just towards the burden of it all. I wish there was more balance.
I want every day to be as rewarding as this one. Scary, but rewarding. For just this moment I didn’t want to be anywhere else, wasn’t tinkering with my phone, wasn’t reading anything, or adding anything to my planner, not thinking about what I was going to make for dinner, or groceries for tomorrow, or doctor appointments, or teacher meetings, or how to budget for new winter coats. I was just thinking about my youngest daughter and her first time in the deep end without me.